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Saturday, May 5, 2007
Lunacy Described
My last post reminded me of how much of a lunatic I sounded to myself when I first became a Christian. I was shocked that the words I heard came out of my mouth. But the longer I've walked this walk, and the more it's sunken in, I don't sound so crazy anymore. Maybe to you, but that's okay. There's really only one I need to impress, and he's already impressed in spite of me. Here are some of the things that sounded crazy to me:
We're Back!
It's been a long time since I've posted. Life has taken hold of my extra time formerly used for posting. Since I last wrote, I did a 4th and 5th step with my sponsor, my husband and I continue to go to the couples 12-step meeting weekly, he is in counseling individually, we go sometimes together, and I am working on finding a counselor I like.
Coming from a self-help-turned-born-again-Christian perspective, it's difficult doing the counseling thing. Most insurance plans don't cover Christian counselors, and Christians who happen to be counselors of the secular type don't disclose that they're Christian. I've been to mainstream counselors a few times since I've been a Christian, and it presents a bit of a personal dilemma for me. I don't want self-will advice. I don't want medication. I want counsel on depending on the Lord. That's just me.
I continue to struggle (mildly) with Alanon issues. I feel all sorts of inner turmoil when he seems to be in a bad space, and then I react on past stuff rather than staying in the moment. If you're in recovery, you get it. If you're not, I probably sound like a lunatic to you.
Anyway, life is good. God can heal anything and it is totally beyond my comprehension. It's a matter of having faith and just acting as if he can really do this thing you're asking. Then sit back and watch. I can NOT believe we're coming up on 9 years of marriage (and 3+ years pre-marriage). And the recent stuff that made us leave was the mildest over the past decade +.
God is good. All the time.
Coming from a self-help-turned-born-again-Christian perspective, it's difficult doing the counseling thing. Most insurance plans don't cover Christian counselors, and Christians who happen to be counselors of the secular type don't disclose that they're Christian. I've been to mainstream counselors a few times since I've been a Christian, and it presents a bit of a personal dilemma for me. I don't want self-will advice. I don't want medication. I want counsel on depending on the Lord. That's just me.
I continue to struggle (mildly) with Alanon issues. I feel all sorts of inner turmoil when he seems to be in a bad space, and then I react on past stuff rather than staying in the moment. If you're in recovery, you get it. If you're not, I probably sound like a lunatic to you.
Anyway, life is good. God can heal anything and it is totally beyond my comprehension. It's a matter of having faith and just acting as if he can really do this thing you're asking. Then sit back and watch. I can NOT believe we're coming up on 9 years of marriage (and 3+ years pre-marriage). And the recent stuff that made us leave was the mildest over the past decade +.
God is good. All the time.
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