I'm going back. I don't know when, but I'm going back. I was holding on for the kids, and because that's what I'm supposed to do, I think. But now it's about us. He is really making an effort. We've been in a cycle for a long, long time. And after a bad spell there are lots of promises. But this time it's different. I know I sound like a duped abuse victim when I say that, but all I can say is I know that I know that I know. He might not get well, but he is definitely trying very hard, and there is a humility now that has not been present for a long time.
We've been to a couples AA meeting together, which was like the missing link. Can't wait to go back. He's been to counseling and I've been to counseling, and we've been to a session together. We're having date nights together. We're going to meetings together. And we're doing what we need to do to grow individually.
Best of all, we are in love! I have not felt this way since our first date, and maybe not even then! I know God can do all things, but I must admit I do doubt sometimes. We are going to spend the night at the house one night this week and see how it goes. He has even offered to have separate bedrooms until I am ready. God is definitely doing for me what I cannot do for myself in this situation!
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